When
I first created this blog is was intended for me (us) to document the journey
of our pregnancy and the growth of our child. Well months have come and gone
and I still haven’t got to start my journey. Ok, will I sort of have started my
journey; it is just completely different than anything I ever imagined it would
be.
As time has passed I have become
completely angry with God as to why this is happening to me. I have learned
that there is no answer. So I would sit and ask him, “Why is this happening to
me?” and “What did I do to deserve this?” and “If you are such a loving God why
does this hurt so much?” I had become so numb to what God was saying to me that
I wasn’t truly listening to him.
One Sunday I finally listened to what
he was saying, and that was if you love God and trust him then don’t worry
about everyone and everything else. Over the next couple of weeks things
started really feeling up. My spirit was so much lighter, I was happier, and
even was enjoying life. But, the hurting was still here and I didn’t know what
to do.
Then, one day I met a friend for coffee
over spring break and she gave me a devotional. This devotional started to
change my life. It was so eye opening about my hurting and what I was doing
about it. (which was nothing by the way) Since that day I am 4 weeks into it
and my biggest takeaway has been I need to learn to have perseverance. I’ve
learned that during my season of waiting I need to praise the Lord through
prayer and conversation.
As I am continuing this season of
waiting I am learning to be joyful. I have become so thankful for the things
that I have that I don’t need to let this hurt keep me down. We have taken the
next step on this journey and we are hoping that over the next couple of months
that we will get some answers.
Until then,
Stay Tuned!
